Late Night Ramblings of the Wide-Awake Pregnant Lady

Okay, so it's the middle of the night and I'm not sleeping anyway, so I might as well blog. This is a much more documented pregnancy and I'm so glad, because I didn't record anything when I was pregnant with Jeremy and consequently have hardly any memories. The blog is such a blessing to me, because for some reason it entertains me long enough to get my thoughts and happenings down and fulfill that good mormon journal requirement. I should fulfill at least one good mormon thing, right, since I don't can?!? Ha Ha LOL Anyway, so it's totally unreal to me that I'll wake up in the morning, (assuming I ever sleep,) and go get myself a baby. I had really come to accept my life with Jeremy. I was very comfortable with the idea of him and I and David being the family I was meant to have. But I really believe that Heavenly Father was waiting for me to release the bitterness of my miscarriage and come to a point where I would accept and be grateful for my life before he gave me another child. It took a while, since I'm apparently a slow learner, but this time has been a real learning experience for me and I am so thankful for the extra time I had with just Jeremy, especially since I get so sick and he's so much more independent now. He's such a blessing and I'm glad Heavenly Father was able to teach me a lesson on gratitude and acceptance. As always, He knows best, and his timing is perfect. I'm sure I missed some other lessons on the way, so they'll come back to get me sooner or later. Can't wait. Ha Ha Ha David and Uncle Jon gave me a blessing tonight that the baby and I would be healthy and I would heal quickly and return to my joyous self. That made me happy. I miss myself, though I think I've been happier this time, not having to work and having gained a little more wisdom. I remember when I was getting ready to have the c-section last time and I had just had 20 hours of labor and was scared. The c-section was our choice and I didn't know what to do. David gave me a blessing and we felt like the c-section was the right thing to do. That was very comforting. It was nice to have my mom there for the blessing because she was there for the first one and remembers the comfort we felt. I love the priesthood, and I'm so thankful it's in my life. I'm also really thankful for eternal families; I sure love mine. Oh I have to tell you this funny thing. Jeremy's been having sympathy pains for me, or at least pretending to. He gets all dramatic and tells me his belly hurts. Well a couple of nights ago when David put him to bed, Jeremy told Daddy that his belly hurt and it was kicking. That was so funny. It's funny to me that no matter what's happening to you, the kids think they want a part of it. If only they knew. I guess it's a precious part of their innocence.